Big Changes In A Little Life

So the past month has been pretty hectic. My new job at MShack has excelled into something I didn't think would happen so soon. According to both of the GMs I am up for a promotion to be a manager. I've only been working there for a month, but I've been working my tail to the bone. I've worked a few doubles and taken pretty much everybody's shift that needs covered. I've been just so thankful that this job actually has the hours to offer me so that I can make the amount of money that I've been looking to make for some time now.
 I've been on this new workout kick. My co-worker Curtis wants to be a personal trainer so I guess I've became his guinea pig and we started working out together after our shifts. I've learned that my mind has put restraints on what my body is capable of. I've learned to tune out those little voices in the back of my head saying that I'm too tired to continue and the self conscious part of myself getting sweaty and not looking cute has been kicked to the curb. After a work out no one cares what you look like, like they say, if you still look cute after a work out you didn't work hard enough.
 In my short 18 years of being blessed to be on this wonderful earth I have learned quite a few things about how to live and how to stay humble.
 A few things have gone on the past few days that have put things into perspective. I'm 18 years old but I'm mature enough to know what I need and what needs to happen and I feel that I'm ready to be on my own. Its all a matter of finding the right place (maybe with the right person) at the right price just to put this plan into motion. I'm currently frantically looking for a room to rent out or a roommate to take with me on this journey. It kind of sucks that I have no friends from high school to call up and offer the position to.. but C'est Le Vie. I'm terrified to be living on my own but I'm also super excited to start this new chapter of my life.

With a Hopeful Heart. xoxo

Good and Bad

It happens in threes right? Well here I am, on job three and tomorrow night will be day three of me working at MShack in Atlantic Beach. The past two shift have been a wonderfully horrid mixture of me being stressed about me messing up and my becoming comfortable with the new job and new rules. This job is so opposite from Tcby. You know how you enter every job and your boss is like "There is always something to be done"? At MShack I always find myself on the move, cleaning something, learning something else, making something. It's kind of stressful relearning everything again from computers to food. I'm kind of thankful I still have the excuse that I'm training.. The customers always calm down a bit after you throw that little sweetheart at them. Tomorrow night is my third and final night of my "Training" which means I get tips not this shift but the next shift. Hooray for cash money though, that'll be really nice to have in my pocket. Working at such a crazy pace, it really takes it out of you, and you don't realize how much your legs and feet hurt after your shift until you sit down and you're like.. Well CRAP! Anyhow, wish me luck and come visit your girl at MShack!

Home is where the heart is

I arrived home at 6 o'clock this morning, and as promised, I ninja'd into the house and pounced on my mommy and talked for a while. The trip, it was long, and tiring.. I drove the majority of the trip, which is just fine. I think I have problems with other people driving my car, but reluctantly, I allowed Melissa to drive so I could rest for a bit. When I arrived home, I came in said hi to my mommy, laid there with her for a while, talked, texted and tried to come down from my caffeine high. After not being able to sleep, I decided to start to unpack my car. It's kind of crazy how much faster you move when you've had two double shot Starbucks coffees. Needless to say, I was ready to run a marathon. After I unpacked my car and brought all my things into my room, I joined my mother back in her bedroom and tried so hard to not fall asleep.. It didn't work. Not soon after I laid my head on her pillow I was out. A good two hour nap later, I wake up to a phone call from a New Jersey accent, I gather myself say hi to my Munkie and head for the shower. I started job hunting, you know, calling around, trying to see who is hiring and who is not. I applied at Victoria Secret today and had a interview 30 minutes later. We'll see how that goes. After my interview I got cuddles from Munkie and fell asleep with him.. Tomorrow I continue my job hunt. I need a job by the end of this coming week at the latest. Wish me luck. I'm about to go pass out.. I've missed my bed so much.

The Day Has Come

Melissa and I are currently packing all of our stuff and cleaning the apartment.. I cannot believe that the day is here.. We're leaving.. I honestly can say that I will miss New York so much. This place has taught me so much the past month. This place is so magical. I made connections, I had meetings, I met people and can honestly say that I have friends in New York City. I'm so grateful that I was even able to come on this trip. I don't even have much to say because I still have so much to do for our departure tomorrow.
I cant wait to see everyone at home, it sucks my best friend Hannah leaves for college like a week after I come home.. I miss the heat and the sun and my mommy and Munkie and believe it or not.. I miss my step dad too.
We leave early evening tomorrow.. See you soon, Jax.

It's unbelievable

This trip has been such a wonderful time. Such a rollercoaster. I have found out who I am here. I have found where I want to be. I've found out about this worship group called Hillsong. Hillsong is a nondenominational church which is a different way to worship, you see, I was brought up to be Roman Catholic. A very strict way to be brought up; going to church every single Sunday. Hillsong isn't like a traditional service my friends here explain it as a giant concert focusing on God.. Back home in Jacksonville we have something like this but it's called Eleven22. I plan on going to Eleven22 and see if I like it..
Tomorrow I have a meeting with Direct Modeling Agency.. My stomach is nervous, my heart is excited and my mind, as usual, is overthinking everything.. This could be very good. This meeting could make me actually make something of what I've been working for the past few years. I really hope that Direct likes me still and signs me. I'm more than willing to travel to New York for jobs and things.

Bed Time

Tonight is probably the only night I'm going to bed early. Tomorrow I 'm going to have a long day. I wake up at 6:15ish to be ready and out the door no later than 7:30. I have to be in the city and at the venue no later than 8:50. I'm nervous and excited for this. I've yet to really have a time to be anywhere in a month. It's wake up whenever, do whatever, hit the city, till whenever. I'm excited, also, for the pay check at the end of these two days I'll be working. When I get back to Jacksonville I'm going hardcore looking for jobs.. I think I'll go crazy if I have to sit in the house and not do anything. I'd much rather have no social life and save all my money for my big move. With sleepy eyes, I bid you goodnight.

Everythings Changing

When I got here, I had this frame of mind that I needed to change nothing. Typical Jacksonville Model arrogance. I thought I knew what I was doing. I thought I had everything I needed to make it here in New York. Silly ignorant Joeli. I'm so glad that I came on this trip. It opened my eyes to how I should be living, eating and socializing. It's all in who you know, granted I only met a few people on this trip, those people know people in high places. Getting me jobs and shoots and more connections. If I had not come on this trip, I would be just like everyone at home. Thinking that Jacksonville is enough and thinking I'm a 'real model'. But in all honesty, we're only at step one. I'm ready for the rough road ahead. Only a few short months until I come to New York and make something of what I started in Jacksonville.