Thursday, October 9, 2014

Some People

Some people work out all of the time and have progression pictures as to how fit they are becoming, these are my progression pictures with my darling Scarlet May. Oh, by the way! IT'S A GIRL! In order these pictures go as follows; 22 Weeks, 22 Weeks 5 Days, 23 Weeks, 24 Weeks 5 Days, 25 Weeks and 26 Weeks. They're kind of sporadic but I'll start doing them weekly so we don't have random days on the progression pictures. She is growing well according to the doctors and I'm gaining enough weight so that's awesome. I'm STILL looking for a job that will hire me being so pregnant I never realized how much people discriminate pregnant women. I'm trying to keep my head up and my mind positive but every time something good happens, something or someone crushes all of my positive vibes I'm trying so desperately to keep up. I'm just thankful that I have a happy healthy baby inside me that kicks me so very often. I really cannot wait to meet her. I know it's all just a rough patch and that Scarlet and I, at the end of the tunnel, will see a light.
I've been at the the library the past three days in hopes that I will get swarms of interview calls and I've only had one. I just really need to keep my head up and think positively.

It's crazy how the moments that you need your best friends are the moments they're pissed at you and want nothing to do with you. Being told that pretty much nothing you're doing is right and that I'm illequipped.. Yes I know I'm illequipped.. Thank you for reminding me. It's fine I really am use to doing much of everything on my own. Why make this any different?
I really can't wait to meet this beautiful girl inside of me. I think she will completely rock my world and several different ways, some may be good, some may be bad. I'm so excited to see what the future has in store for us.

trying so very hard to stay positive.