Life has gotten slowly but slowly wonderful again, and not even with a man in it. I found my self worth again and it feels amazing.
I'm now working two jobs *Coconut Tan and Focus Cleaning Solutions*. By day I'm a tannin consultant, by night I'm cleaning office buildings. Money is good. I'm living back with my parents and its not the most ideal situation but I'm loving living wit my mom and Mike. They both adore Scarlet and Daniel I feel doesn't know how to feel with Scarlet.. Amazing what a few months can do to your mind set and the size of your spawn. Scarlet is 5 and a half months old and becoming such a little human.. I can't believe she is almost a half a year old.
She turned over all by her self the other night and has been working on doing it continuously. She is getting so spunky and just so big.. I would say a weight but I honestly have no clue how much her chubby little butt is weighing now a days.
Brendan has been such a wonderful baby daddy. It's amazing how much they love each other already. When it's his weekend it's wonderful to get pictures of them together just enjoying each and every second. When it's his weekend, I'm not going to lie it's pretty hard and I miss her but it's nice to have me time.
She is the happiest baby I've yet to meet!
If I'm being honest; I love being a mommy and I can't for another one.. Maybe two.. But I also want to be in a steady relationship and hopefully engaged by then. When ever the universe decides its time; I'll be ready, I'm sure.. I wasn't ready for this one and I'm loving it so much. I work my ass off to provide for us both and it sucks that I will inevitably miss something with Scarlet but as long as we're provided for I guess that's what I get when I'm the one who is "Bringing home the bacon".
In the world of dating; Well.. I'm learning what I deserve and will no longer accept anything less.. I gave my all to this guy who made lies to go and be by himself.. I wish him the best and will be here for him if he ever needs any help but romantically? he and I will never be again.. It kinda sucks because I thought for sure he was the one.. I thought I was done dating.. Then he makes up some bogus ass lie.. oh well.. I'm waiting patiently to have the guy who will stick around for longer than a month.
Tattoos; I'm finally starting my sleeve because I have the money right now. I'm starting with my shoulder with Scarlet and I's birth flowers *Carnation & Rose*. I am also getting 'Fight off your demons' on my forearm. I'm so excited to start my sleeve.
OH! I went on my first ever motorcycle ride with a friend of mine, Joe! It was soooooo much fun!! It definitely made me realize that I want a bike fairly bad, they're just so freeing. I also met some amazing people on the ride!
On to bigger and better things..
With so much love.